So when did I become 40 something? Where is life leading me? What adventures does it hold for me? One thing I know for sure is that I am the only one who can lead my life. In my thirties I knew that life was not going to wait for me. I had to take control and do what I could to lead the way. Going back to uni at 30 something was the hardest but most exciting thing I had ever done! Success at 30 something - finally! Now at 40 something, and teaching for nearly 10 years, I am again at the cross roads of my life journey. Do I stay or do I go?
Oh Niki i hear you. It is a tough, tough question and one that at 42 I ask myself too. Similar journeys I suspect. I find myself struggling with so much in education yet every Sunday I get the familiar butterflies in my stomach at the prospect of another week with my incredible learners. I also think to myself that if I won the lottery tomorrow ( exceptionally hard for me to achieve as I do not gamble) then I would still stay working but maybe not so much or with so much weight on my shoulders. Yet holidays come around and every term by then my spirit is broken by all the hardships and trials and tribulations that come from working in an industry that is essentially a whole bunch of control freaks connected by a shared love of something. Keep your chin up and know that you are not alone in the doubt. Sounds to me like you will do well in whatever you set your mind to anyhow.
ReplyDeleteHi there, thanks for reading my blog! Lol it's quite fun writing down what I'm thinking...hoping it all makes sense! Well how addictive is teaching! I'm not looking at leaving the education system just looking at different opportunities ie changing schools etc to help rejuvenate my mojo ;-) Having taught at only one school I think it's time to create change..what do you think?
ReplyDeleteThis will sound weird, but I have a friend who has recently kicked a P addiction. He was describing it as something that got your adrenaline running, that got you going and motivated, was quick to be highly addicted, had you on high alert, caused you to not sleep much and the come down was hard. I said it sounded just like teaching. Teaching is highly addictive, has adrenaline coursing through me, disrupts my sleeping patterns, has me on alert all the time, and the come down is incredibly hard - particularly if you start the year without a class of your own. I told you it was weird.... but it was a comparison that jumped out at me.
ReplyDeleteHi there! You are right about the comparison! Thank goodness it's a positive addiction right? It's true about starting with a new class too...or not... that's why I think a change is also a good idea otherwise stagnation can be a downer :-) Hope your friend finds a positive "addiction" to ingite the passion!
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